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July 17, 2013

Do you ever feel like this?
I feel like this has been my latest self-struggle. The desire to want to be better, to be the best you can be. But then in reality its so hard to make such a drastic change all at once. Or change - period. I have these realizations that I am wasting precious time in my life. That I am wasting so many great and fun opportunities with my children while they are still young and tiny and precious - or wasting my health by not enjoying how healthy my body can be, or wasting my spirituality by not having more growing experiences, or not being the best wife I could potentially be - and it irks my soul! I feel so much guilt - all because I am too tired, or too lazy, or unmotivated. But how do you REALLY change? Because as many times as I have gone over this dilemma it never pushes me hard enough to make a complete and lasting change. 

So this is my starting point. 
I am going to be patient with myself 
(because I tend to think things need to be changed and perfect right. this. minute.)
and I'm going to allow myself to become the person I dream of being. To evolve into her. To be more of what I want, and less of what I don't. 

ready. set. go.





2 comments:

  1. I love the julie journals! we already talord about this tonight but you are not alone in feeling this way. I think it comes with the job of being a mother and wife. you spread yourself out to the people you love and put your own wants and desires on the back burner. the trick (which is easier said then done) is to realize your own worth and save a little of your self for you. its ok to be selfish and do things for just you. you need to find julie again and then do something for just julie!

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  2. Whoa whoa whoa! Is this blog NEW or something?!?! Gross!!

    Just kidding. It looks great and I'm excited to read it.

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